I wonder about a lot of things many minutes, most days. But most often I wonder, how do people grow?
So far it has taken me…
And I still feel – no, I know – I have so far to go. Sometimes it’s overwhelming.
“Turning on yourself is betraying what made you.” -Sabrina Ward Harrison
Yet it feels so easy to do
life doesn’t show up the way we imagined it would be or feel or taste
sometimes it’s bitter sweet.
sometimes it requires us to step it up.
most times, it asks us to relax
lighten the load.
love a little deeper.
laugh a bit more.
well, maybe not all life events appear to say that on the surface, but the heart of something bigger and wiser does! If you listen, you can hear it as a whisper in the trees when the wind blows, and see it as a kiss of peach in the clouds when the sun sets, and feel it as a soft hand patting yours, years of experience decorated by wrinkles, saying “you’re doing just fine.”
and i know it’s a shame to worry all the way through the days. it feels like a crime to wrestle with thoughts when you really want to just be here.
but i’m beginning to think this worrying is just part of being human.
and maybe the ache of questions unanswered
and the sting of inadequacy
lately, I’ve been realizing that if nothing else, a life well-lived is a life that asks us to be more loving…to learn to love ourselves and others more wholly.
why does that feel like such a tremendously difficult task?
because it isn’t meant to happen overnight.
this is what a life can be spent discovering and practicing again and again.
it isn’t easy work, but it’s the only work, and it calls to us through many forms, in every language on the planet.
“It is alright. This. Right here. This mess…these anxious questions. Doubts. Answers and waiting. This is just as it is. Right now; taking me on my way. Don’t run. We all suffer. There will be understanding sooner than you think and later than you expected.” -Sabrina Ward Harrison